Thursday, August 31, 2006

i used to be alive
and so beautiful inside
now i’ve lost my way
an open book with a torn page
something’s missing in me.
i’m losing control
behind these four walls
i can’t breathe anymore
believe in me…

honestly, this distance is what’s killing me
i lied when i said waiting was fine
i need you here with me now
cuz every hour hurts
except the last one kills.

don’t say you’re losing your faith in me
it’s only your mind
that fills itself with dirty images.

you don’t need to stop your world
i just want you to include me
these damn circumstances
you didn’t have to lie
why was i weak?
why did we let it go?

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

john mayer

sana maambunan ako ng talento mo. ;P

~~~

hmmm... must remind me-self to pre-order his latest album, continuum, at m1 to get me that *free* shirt. (and possibly that guitar. *drools* :L)

ink blot test

got this from hannah.

~~~

Your Unconscious Mind Is Most Driven by Love.



Your instinct to love and be loved is rooted very deeply in your subconscious and affects most of the decisions you make in life – whether you are aware of it or not. You inspire people to experience their true feelings of love and act kindly towards others. You also value your personal relationships more than most people.

Your unique capacity to love may be greater than those around you, which means you may have more to give in relationships than your friends or romantic partners do.

~~~

ink me

~~~

uzz, parang tunay a. :P

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

overheard

"bakit ang lalake isa lang ang pwedeng ligawan? bakit ang babae..."

Monday, August 28, 2006

Friday, August 25, 2006

i wanna be with you now...

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

hanggang salita ka lang naman...

anong hindi?

At least, hindi relatives ang nagtatanong sayo nun.

anong hindi?

kanina sa pila nakasabay ko si tita at si tito. (madalas si tito lang ang nakakasabay ko. at madalas, kung napapansin nya ako, nililibre nya ako ng pamasahe. at di naman ako makatanggi kahit na nahihiya ako sa kanya. di naman daw nya kasi ikayayaman yun.) may dalawang tao yung nasa pagitan namin. syempre dahil magalang at mabait akong bata pinuntahan ko sila para magmano.

ako: mano po. (kay tita)
tita: kamusta ka?
ako: mabuti po. mano po. (kay tito)
tita: (nakangiting nagtanong...) kamusta ang girlfriend?
ako: ummm... (patawang nasabing...) wala po akong girlfriend e.
tita: (napatawa ng konti) ... ... bakit?
ako: ahh... sige po balik na ko sa pila.

bleh! sabi ko na nga ba dapat paminsan-minsan di ako mabait at magalang e.

nung naningil yung dispatcher at nag-alok sila na sila na daw ang magbabayad para sa akin, di na ko tumanggi. pwede ng kabayaran yun. hehe. :P

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

her kiss was as soft as the drizzle lightly falling upon us...

like she, it was barely even there and yet already gone...

free ad



gustong-gusto ko 'tong commercial na 'to. may mankey kasi e. hehe. :D

Monday, August 21, 2006

lunes ng tayo'y...

lunes

maulan. nandito ako ngayon sa opis. nagtatrabaho. ang aga ko kasing umalis nung biyernes kasi pumunta ako sa folk arts. yan tuloy kailangan kong mag-OTy ngayon. pero oks lang gusto ko naman talagang magtrabaho ngayon kaysa sa maiwan na naman akong magisa sa bahay para magmukmok.

~~~

biyernes

kakagising ko palang gusto ko nang mag alas singko. rockestra kasi ngayon. naka-loop na sa winamp ko sa opis yung mga kanta ng itchyworms, urbandub at up dharma down. concert mode na concert mode na ako. buti na lang nag-seminar kami ng umaga kasi alam ko na wala talaga akong magagawang trabaho ngayon. pag dating ng hapon nire-review ko na yung mga instructions sa akin ng mga pinagtanungan ko kung paano pumunta ng folk arts. (wala talaga akong alam pag dating sa pasikut-sikot sa manila. syano talaga ako e. hehe.) mukha namang kaya ko nang makarating dun. pero mas mabuti na kung maaga ako aalis para kahit na maligaw ako makakaabot pa rin ako sa concert.

langyang buhay to. kung kailan mo kailangang umalis ng maaga sa trabaho saka magdadatingan yung mga dapat gawin. bahala sila basta aalis ako ng alas singko impunto dito! hmmm... buti natapos ko yung mga dapat tapusin. two out of three nga lang. hehe. iniisip ko kung sabado ako mago-OT o sa lunes. sabi ko lunes na lang kasi baka di ko pa kayang lumabas ng sabado.

(bandang hapon din kasi nagyayaya si birthday boy alekos ng gimik. papainom daw sya. tatanggi ba naman ako sa ganun? yun nga lang sa timog ang venue. sabi ko hahabol na lang ako. sabi nga ni jae magto-tour of manila daw ako.)

5:15 na ata ako nakaalis ng opis. sakay ako ng lrt na bus. baba ako sa lrt tas sakay papuntang vito cruz. dun sa vito cruz mej naligaw ako. tinext ko tuloy si ate na isa sa mga nagbigay sa akin ng directions papunta dun.

text ko:
ate!Ü naliligaw ako! nandito ako sa may kumakahol na aso. hehe. :P

pero mej naligaw talga ako. nagtanong pa nga ako kay mamang pulis e. sabi nya tumawid ako para makita ko yung hinahanap kong orange na jeep. pero bago ako tumawid kumain muna ako sa jollibee ng crispy-licious at juicy-licious na chicken joy. sobrang natakam kasi ako sa kwento ng purrty kong kaibigan habang nagmemeryenda kami nung hapon e. mga 6:30 na rin ata ako nakaalis ng jollibee para tumawid at hanapin yung orange na jeep. buti naman at nakita ko. at makalipas ang ilang minuto nasa harap na ko ng folk arts. ang aga ko! 6:45. siguro mga 7:20 na sila nagpapasok. nakaupo ako sa gitna ng front row ng orange section. ayus! solb na ako sa pwesto ko dito. matagal-tagal pa bago magsimula yung concert kaya nakatulog pa ako. bandang 8 nakita ko si dacs at si drew. mas malapit ng konti yung pwesto nila sa stage. dun sila sa red section. nung nakaupo na sila tinext ko si dacs.

ako: dacs!Ü kita ko kayo. tingin ka sa likod mo.Ü
dacs & drew: {tumingin sa likod}
ako: {kumaway-kaway}
dacs: lipat ka na lang dito. mukha namang walang bantay e.
ako: hmmm... mamaya na lang pag nag-start na.

sa totoo lang nahihiya talaga akong lumipat kasi meron pang dumadating na mga late na tao. pero after ng first song nagtek ulit si dacs.

dacs: oy! lipat ka na dito.
ako: may mauupuan ba ako?Ü
dacs. meron sa tabi ni drew.Ü
ako: ayus!Ü

e di lumipat din ako. na-disorient pa nga ako kasi di ko sila agad nakita. (kaya mas sulit ang concert kasi naka-*discount* ako e. hehe.) pero nakita ko din sila. napansin ko na mas mainit sa pwesto nila. pero oks lang kasi napansin ko na (mas) naririnig ko na yung orchestra dun sa pwesto nila. nice!

ayus lahat ng mga performances ng mga banda. pinaka gusto ko yung performance ng up dharma down. bagay kasi sa mga kanta nila yung dagdag na tunog na bigay ng mso. ayus din yung sa urbandub. pero agree din ako sa sinabi ni ma'am dacs na sana pumili sila ng isang lumang kanta. enjoy yung performance ng itchyworms kasi ang kukulit nila. pero madaming na-dissappoint na manonood nung di nila pang finale yung kanata nilang beer or buwan. (or love team. hmmm... ako lang ata na-dissappoint dahil di nila kinanta to. hehe.) pero siguro ang tatak sa utak nung mga nanuod ng concert ay yung performance ni scene stealer of the night john santos aka armida siguion macareyna. sobrang hagalpak sa tawanan yung buong folk arts. ang galing ng timing ng mga sundot at hirit nya. saktong-sakto. sarap nga ng tawa ko nun e. (siguro match sa tawa ko nung pinapanood ko to.)

11 na natapos yung concert. sabay sana ako kina ma'am dacs at andrew sa taxi para maibaba nila ako sa edsa kaso lang di kami makapara ng taxi. nagjeep na lang kami papuntang taft para dun sila sumakay. humiwalay na ako sa kanila at nag-abang ng pwede kong masakayan papuntang timog kasi sabi ni drew may dumadaan ata na jeep na dadaan sa kamuning dun. e kaso lang parang wala naman akong makitang jeep na dadaan ng kamuning. sabi ni jae sakay daw ako ng bus pa-fairview. e wala naman akong makitang bus. (ano nga ba ang pwede kong sakyan??) may nakita akong fx na biyaheng fairview. sumakay na ako dun. bahala na si batman.

~~~

sabado

bumaba ako ng q.ave. (galing talaga ni batman!) nagtaxi papuntang gma para pick-up-in si lex at si jae. diretso kami dun sa daig pa ang sleeper-hold na bar. sobrang cozy ng lugar nakatulog tuloy kami ni lex. (sorry jae! hehe.) lumipat kami sa kalye juan kasi nagugutom na si jae. nagugutom na rin pala ako. enjoy kami ni jae sa mainit na sinigang na baboy at inihaw na tyan ng bangus. si lex? cheesesticks at beer. (sorry lex! hehe.) dun na lang namin tinuloy, actually sinumulang magkwentuhan. the usual usapang may tama na.

"...pre mapili lang naman tayo kaya wala tayong mga girlfriend."
"kung gugustuhin naman natin pwedeng-pwede tayong magka-girlfriend e."
"ano next week?"
"wala di naman natin magagawa yun kasi good guys tayo e."
"oo nga. tignan mo tong si xxx. bff!"

sarap nang kwentuhan at inuman namin. umabot nga kami ng alas kwatro alas kwatro dun e.

alas sais na ko nakarating ng bahay. pagod at sobrang antok. pero happy. natulog ako hanggang alas dose tas nanood ng eat bulaga tas natulog ulit hanggang alas sais. nagdinner tas natulog na ulit.

~~~

linggo

... ... ... ... ... yes! lunes na bukas! papasok ako! ... ... ...

~~~

lunes (ulit)

medyo bad trip akong sumakay ng jeep kasi nag-bus ako papuntang makati. buti na lang may nakasakay akong miss cute(may dimple din!^^). sabi ko pag pareho kami ng bababaan magpapakilala ako sa kanya. pareho kami ng binabaan. kaso lang umiral na naman ang pagka-chicken ko. nakakatawa/nakakainis kasi sa enterprise din ang punta nya kaya kasabay ko syang naglakad mula dun sa binabaan namin...

sa may tower one din sya...

kami lang dalwa ang sakay sa elevator!

ummm...

ummm...

ummm...

wala e. eprot e. :P

Friday, August 18, 2006

why did ninoy die?

what a waste...

...

...

...

...of a good monday.

...

...

...

give me back my monday!

Thursday, August 17, 2006

day or night


doesn't matter if it's day or night
whenever i think of you...
what matters most is that
i think of you...

doesn't matter if it's day or night
whenever i'm with you...
what matters most is that
i'm with you...

doesn't matter if it's day or night
as long as you love me...
what matters most is that
i love you...
sana 'sing simple ng soap opera ang buhay ko.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

i'm it

~~~

tagged by mapet. :)

and for lack of anyhting to write... :P

~~~

every search begins with beginner's luck. and every search ends with the victor's being severely tested."

the boy remembered an old proverb from his country. it said that the darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn.

~~~

got no book here in the office. e-book meron pa. :P

hehe. four sentences. so sue me. :P

~~~

this is how it works:

1. grab the nearest book.
2. open the book to page 123.
3. find the fifth sentence.
4. post the text of the next 3 sentences on your blog along with these instructions.
5. don’t you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! i know you were thinking about it! just pick up whatever is closest.
6. tag three people.

~~~

/me tagging niks, jem and angel.

Monday, August 14, 2006

gusto ko lang namang maging masaya...

Sunday, August 13, 2006

weekend blaaaah(st)

friday

had an early dinner with my purrty friend at jollibee landmark. had a great time talking with her. after dinner i asked her to accompany me to tower records to inquire about the rockestra ii tickets. too bad that their system was offline. apparently their system was only online until 4pm. sucks. since we were in tower we decided to stay awhile and browse for new music. saw the new album of imago and stayed in front of the rack for more than 20 minutes. left tower records happy.

met up with kei and nikki at gb powerbooks. had dinner with them at jollibee(!) glorietta. (hmm... *technicaly* had dinner. i only had dessert. :P) later mark came and joined us. had a grand time talking about our grown-up lives, e.g. work and high school life (syempre!). i find it funny how our stories are evolving from teeny booper movies to family matters. and oh, mark thought us how to tie our shoe laces in less than a second. coolness! (but i think this is still better. :D)

arrived at laguna around 11:30. fed peewee the rememnants of the chicken joy that niks and mark had. (poor dog only prefers bones instead of rice nowadays... :S) played 50 fights of tekken using kuma-chan because i was itching to use his roll move. (d, D/F+1+2, 1_2_3_4_1+2_3+4) yey to the bear mix-ups! :D had my daily workout before washing my face and going to bed.

saturday

woke up at 8. took a bath and went to pacita's bayad center to pay our meralco bill. after that went to the mini tiangge in search for a new game or two. too bad they didn't have okami or shadow of the colossus. bummer. decided to buy dibidis instead. i was looking for the intial d the movie (live action) but here's what i got instead,

fast and the furious tokyo drift - (forgive me for being pop.) eye candy! and the drift scenes... wow!! storywise, it's like porn.

freddy got fingered - tom green is plain old weird and his weirdness reflects in his humor. very very funny if you like tom green or you're a wierdo. (look dad! i'm a farmer! i'm a farmer!)

top gun - tom cruise! you've lost that loving feeling... wooh... that loving feeling...

when harry met sally - ^________^ at last found a copy of this movie. see me smile. ^________^ this movie is all about smart funny and witty conversations about how men and women think. very very very entertaining.

a quick stop at the grocery to buy some merienda for my pending dibidi marathon and i was off to go home. while waiting in line for another passenger, this lady started chatting with me.

obaasan: wala kang pasok ngayon?
me: ummm... wala po. (kilala ba kita?)
obaasan: e si apple?
me: meron po. (pocha, dapat kilala ko to a.)
obaasan: nasaan mama mo?
me: nasa pampanga po. (ahh, ka-street ko pala 'to.)
obaasan: ikaw lang mag-isa dyan sa inyo?
me: opo.

then she proceeds to talk about her son and his new job. then out of the blue she asks me,

obaasan: may girlfriend ka ba?
me: ha? wala po.
obaasan: ows? meron ata...
me: wala po talga.

and to add insult to injury...

obaasan: wala ba talaga? ... bakit?
me: ha e... tara na po. may tricycle na o.

argh! don't you just hate that? >_<

got home prepared lunch, watched some eat bulaga and dibidi marathon commenced (with tekken breaks) until 10ish. slept afterwards.

lazy downhill sunday

... ... ...

monday na bukas! sa wakas!

i really hate weekends...

Friday, August 11, 2006

wala na akong tapehoho.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

to zanarkand



press play while your reading this...

there. nice, isn't it? this piece came from ffx. i'm sure most of you will like this eventhough you didn't play the game or you're not a fan of the ff series. listening to it reminds me of the hours (100++ hours) i spent playing that game. aah, yes... my days as a full fledge bum. :P

~~~

here's a better version of the song. so why put this version? so i can make this comment,

this guy is gay. look at his pants. :P

~~~

edit:

wow! this is so much better. :D

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

chorus

i know i can change
i can change your mind somehow
somehow change it now

(haiku #215)

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

bad things happen to the best of us.

look on the bright side, it could be worse.

look on the dark side, it could be better.

Monday, August 07, 2006

10 easy steps to feel depressed

1. be impulsive and go to your nearest (national) bookstore

2. find the area where they sell greeting cards and go to the "love" section

3. find the strength to read the cards

4. pick the sweetest and the most expensive card you fancy and which you think she will like

5. decide to buy that card

6. choose the longest line that you can see and wait in the queue for a couple of minutes

7. while waiting in line, realize that you ain't got no one to give the card to

8. be brave and go back to return the card

9. leave (national) bookstore feeling lonelier and more depressed than before

10. weep

Friday, August 04, 2006

nood tayo nito



game?

is it any wonder

nothing left inside this old cathedral
just the sad lonely spires
adding you make it right

Thursday, August 03, 2006

woah!

nagulat at natuwa ako nung ginawan ni mapet ng mala-postsecret yung entry ko. pero mas nagulat ako at mas natuwa ako nung nagbukas ako ng mail ko. eto tignan nyo para matuwa din kayo. :)











ÜÜÜ

vroom! vroom!

kailan nga ba yung huling beses ko na nakasakay (ulit) ako ng kotse? hmmm... hmm.. hm. sa sobrang tagal na di ko na maalala. um... ay, oo nga pala! kagabi lang.hehe. tatlong kotse pa nga yung nasakayan ko e.

pauwi na ko galing sa isang videoke session (masayang kumanta ng malulungkot na kanta) nang makita ko yung mga nakadisplay na honda na kotse sa gitna ng glorietta. nagbago yung isip ko na kumain. magwiwindow shopping na lang ako ng kotse saka ako uuwi. :)

una ko sanang sasakyan yung crv pero ang daming uzi. kaya nauna kong nasakyan yung civic. ang ganda nya! *tulo laway* siguro mga tatlong minuto akong nakaupo dun. sunod yung crv. ang ganda rin! *tulo tulo laway* na-ewanan nga lang ako sa kambyo nya. isipin mo yung kambyo ng L300 tabasan mo ng konti tas imbis na sa manibela ilagay mo sa may dashboard malapit sa may speedometer. ampanget! naalibadbaran ako. buti na lang matic yung nandun. baka sa manual normal na sya. last kong sinakyan yung jazz. *tulo tulo tulo laway* pinakatrip ko sa lahat to. nakikita ko pa lang sya sa daan napapasipol na ako. *wit-wiw!* at nung naupo ako sa loob, naku patay na! feel na feel ko na talga. nag-imagine na ko na naminamaneho ko yun sa may tagaytay, alabang, greenhills, kahit saan. syempre medyo light lang yung tint ng bintana para nakikita pa rin ako. tas makikita ako ng mga bebot tas sasabihin nila, "nice car. gwapo ba yung nagda-drive? ayy, may gf na..." (yep, nice car nga. yep, gwapo. syempre may nice car ako e. yep, may gf na. syempre may nice car ako e.) tagal kong nakaupo dun at kung di lang dumadami yung tao mastatagal pa ko. kaya umalis na ko kahit labag sa kalooban ko.

humingi ako ng price list ng mga kotse... ... ... pwede! kelangan ko lang magpaalipin sa trabaho ko ng ilang taon para ma-promote tas kaya ko ng bumili ng kotse.

i want my nice car na!

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

sometimes i'm an elephant

something i wrote came to me this morning. there was nothing out of the ordinary in what i wrote. just my usual musing. what strikes me is that i can still remember the instance when i thought up of that line.

it was back in 3rd year college and it was about high noon. i just arrived at the calora house after an exam but instead of watching eat bulaga and eating lunch i opted to shoot some hoops outside the apartment. (which is so not me.) so there i was sweating under the summer sun shooting but missing to my heart's content when it hits me. i then got my 5110 and sent the message to txxx. why i sent to her i don't know. and it totally escapes me now why i composed that li'l rhyme.

here's what i wrote,

and i guess it's plain to see
that i'm just another name
in your phone directory

~~~

edit:

jem: request granted. :D

this pic courtesy of my friendship mapet! ang sipag nya no? ;) thanks pet! :)

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

nothing else to blame but the rain

gah! i'm half wet. damn rain decided to act like a he-bitch and peed on the legs of my pants.

but i love this kind of weather none the less. how it creates the illussion that everything is moving in a much slower pace. how it soaks everyone with sleepiness making them feel all the more lazy and lethargic.and how it locks me in the perfect brooding mood.

rain is my liquid sunshine.

if only i had someone to cuddle with my gloom then i'd love the rain even more...