crisis (not) averted

quarter life crisis, mid life crisis - i say feh to these labels. after all, life as a whole, is a crisis.

excited...

at the prospect of a future you.

let's be uncertain together.

life wouldn't be life without its complications.

maturity doesn't exactly come along with age, rather it springs forth from experience.

on repeat

i dig my toes into the sand
the ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
strewn across a blue blanket

i may be setting myself up for one of the biggest wins or biggest losses yet in my life.

may or may not

they say that dreams are the opposite of reality. well i hope that the opposite of that statement is true.

music factor

when i do get the chance to listen to the shuffled songs on your mp3 player, i already know now that i'll feel like home then.

on missing

is there a minimum before you can miss someone?

the hour is not minute by minute, but pain by pain.

take and take

so you've finally decided to give life a chance. you start small by giving it your hand. but you know what's funny about the animal that is life? you give it your hand, it swallows your arm whole.

we somehow survive today, with all its missteps and mismatches. the real tragedy is that we'll have to go through all of it again tomorrow.

anywhere but there

i hate the fact that there's this certain place where all my failures tend to gather, culminate and reside.

apathetic

i miss my old self. the one who had the gusto and penchant to just write whatever comes to his mind. i've become too much uncaring, indifferent, disinterested, flat, vapid that i don't even have a proper ending for this post.

wala ng love sa ating team

the clash

the alien warmth engulfs me, steady
my touch, my mood, centered and certain
i know.
ideas circle and go, as seasons
and people cycle through,
i remember that all is fine.

i swim with the wave of deja vu,
finding, sensing intimacy i know.
a glimpse of you sends rapture through me.
that instant's calmness shattered
by a yearning
to be in oblivious limbo perennial.

i am powerless in your proximity,
the closeness intoxicating.
the ivory tower of sanctuary
momentarily crumbles with the clash of feelings.
but knowing smiles paint comfort,
mutual strangeness replaced by shared bliss.

now i leave the horde of tangled cars
i walk.
i linger in daze thoughts of adulation and the wave.
and i ache...
for the clash
to repeat.

~~~

inspired by this.

annoyed

nothing is more annoying than an annoying person wearing annoying perfume.

peewee

i miss my dog. she died wednesday last week after being sick for about three days. save for the times when my mom comes to visit, she has been my sole companion here at home for the past two years or so. she was one, if not the main reason i go home after going out with friends. and home now is a bit empty without her. sooner or later i know that i'll move on, maybe remember her now and then and eventually forget her but now is still not later. so for now i miss her.

taken

i think i've neglected this blog and this blog long enough.