another one

haiku #1.1

always be honest
coz the truth will set you free
cliche? yes, but true

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haiku #2.1

is it really love?
or just infatuation?
think before you act...

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thanks to anna for this couple. :)

haiku update

haiku #47

47 'to
akala mo mo wala na no
me din e. hehe.

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haiku #59

this li'l piece if me
i willingly give to you
take care of it, yah?

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haiku #104

ako ang lunas
sa iyong karamdamang
ako ang sanhi

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haiku #20 still missing...

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thanks ate ross for *recovering* the lost ones. :)

long time no post. ehe... well i got nothing to write. or in other words, i don't want to share.

for the mean time i'll share to you what i've been doing these last couple of months. (thanks to globe txtnonstop. :P) a couple of them are lost and i'm trying to find them. (or is it just that i've lost count? [yet again!])

for now...

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haiku #16

takbo ng oras
aking nais pigilin
pag kapiling ka

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haiku #17
di mo ba pansin
natatanging pagtingin
sa 'yo 'king sinta

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haiku #18

oo, alam ko.
ako rin ay 'yong gusto.
kapal ng mukha?

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haiku #19

bago matulog
gusto kang masilayan
nais mahagkan

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haiku #21

napakalamig
kakatamad maligo...
hehehehehe...

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haiku #22

miss, tanong lang po,
may friendster account ka ba?
pwedeng add mo ko? :P

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haiku #23 (pickup line)

"Ei, how ya doin'?"
"Oh. Do you come here often?"
"Miss, i love you na."

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haiku #24

sandman beckons me
to dream dreams of what might be
and so i slumber

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haiku #25

six na nga pala
sa wakas uwian na
ingats ka po ha

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haiku #25? or #26?

hampas ng ulan
tila fi na titila...
...ayy, huminto na??

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haiku #27

eh! amoy pawis!
daig pa ang sardinas...
bah! mrt... bah!

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haiku #28

oras: alas dos
wala pa rin sa bahay
lagot kay inay

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haiku# 29

the coldness of dawn
embraces me lovingly
like a long lost friend

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haiku #30

natataranta
tuwing nakikita ka
eprot talaga

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haiku #31
maniwala ka...
badinggar-Z? Aketch? Ching!
jombagan na lng!

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haiku #31(?)

1 message received
sya na kaya 'to? sana.
opening inbox...

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haiku #33
oo, kami na
pero nung nalaman nya
hindi na kami

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haiku #34

why do i love thee?
i hath not seen thy beauty
but thine heart says, "oui!"

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haiku #35

churn and churn it goes
the haiku machine of JAm
but why did it stop?

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haiku #37

let me hold your hand
as we crunch leaves at our feet
trapped in our li'l world

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haiku #37(?)

deprived of slumber
i slowly prowl the mornings
zombieautiful

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haiku #38

i'm lost yet again
in my labyrinth of dreams
good thing you're with me

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haiku #38(?)

lamig ng gabi
di ko nararamdaman
pag kayakap ka

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haiku #40

di makatulog
nalipasan ng antok
ikaw kasi e

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haiku #41

blueberry pancakes
with lite syrup and coffee
mmmm... yummy! shall we?

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haiku #42

we may be apart
but moments that we both shared
are with me, always

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haiku #43

haikus are quite nice
three lines with 5-7-5
syllables per line

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haiku #44

oil in the puddle
make artificial rainbows
that ripple and sway

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haiku #45

solitary me
on a bus ride to nowhere
wishing you were here

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haiku #46

you are the honey
that spices up my bland life
plus you're sugarfree

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haiku #48

i really don't know
how i can settle for this
when i can have more

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haiku #49

just a little budge
that is all i really need
to say to you that...

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haiku #50

kalamayin mo
'king sinta, ang 'yong loob
parating na ko

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haiku #51

bidding you goodnight
and hope you'll sleep tight my dear
see you in my dreams

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haiku #52

countless sleepless nights
i've spent dreaming about you
how long must i wait?

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haiku #53

ei, don't worry
ev'rything is just dandy
though, it was funny

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haiku #54

crossing a tight rope
that's how delicate life is
balance is the key

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haiku #55

ako'y may lab-nat
na kiss-pirin/yakap-sule
lang ang katapat

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haiku #56

bad trip 'tong globe a
ang hirap magsend ng text
nakakainis

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haiku #57

mababaw ako
solb na ko sa piso mo
oy text mo ko ha

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haiku #58

nakakabagot
ang maghintay sa wala
reply ka naman

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haiku #60

hanap mo ba ko
mula sa'yong pag gising
hanggang pag tulog?

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haiku #61

bakit ba ganun
tayo'y pinaghiwalay
sa may LRT

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haiku #62

walang ha ni ho
daig ka pa ng multo
kung magparamdam

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haiku #63

i die a little
everytime you say goodbye
and cry idle tears

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haiku #64

say it isn't so
that i'm repeating myself
say it isn't so

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haiku #65

buhay mo at ko
parang showbiz talaga
echo at tintin

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haiku #66

enough is enough
i don't deserve this torment
please take me away

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haiku #67

bakit ba ganun?
ewan ko. ewan natin.
sinong may alam?

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haiku #68

walang magawa
kundi buntong hininga
at tumunganga

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haiku #69

i feel so helpless
like that butterfly you caught
with your quick fingers

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haiku #70

just accept the fact
that all things come to an end
the fat lady sung

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haiku #71

time to close your eyes
and rest your aching body
let's call it a day

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haiku #72

it's pouring outside
makes me wanna lay in bed
sleep the day away

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haiku #73

haay, laging malas
ah, kaya naman pala
may balat sa pwet

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haiku #74

stand against the sun
cast my shadow over you
keep you breezy cool

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haiku #75

pale moon on your skin
reminds me of milky silk
soft, creamy and smooth

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haiku #76

twinkle in your eyes
plucked from the serene night sky
melts me and calms me

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haiku #77

di mapalagay
naguguluhang isip
sa kaiisip

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haiku #78

kati kati ka
tingala tingala ti
ngala ngala nga

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haiku #79

no, it can't be helped
nothing else to do but live
life as we know it

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haiku #80

i don't wanna hear
you say another good night
'til you're by my side

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haiku #81

paistorbo ha
di ako makatulog
pasensya na ha

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haiku #82

i deserve better
i deserve somene better
i deserve someone

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haiku #83

things change constantly
but you're still my heart's desire
that won't ever change

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haiku #84

there's no point crying
over the milk that we spilled
let's just clean it up

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haiku #85

bring just enough clothes
make sure they are all asleep
ready the ladder

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haiku #86

i can't figure out
why i can not live with you
nor live without you

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haiku #87

in the calm still night
all i can hear are crickets
and your light breathing

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haiku #88

saan mamasyal?
south mall? atc? festi?
ah, metropolis!!

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haiku #90

let sleeping dogs lie
just leave all the stones unturned
it's best left unsaid

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haiku #91

hey, it's not that hard
it's just three li'l simple words
go ahead, say it

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haiku #92

wala na kong load
last piso ko na ito
para lang sa'yo

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haiku #93

something is missing
and i'm quite lost without it
help me find it, please

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haiku #94

let's shop til we drop
buy gifts for our special friends
and for our loved ones

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haiku #95

just give me a sign
that is all i ever need
to make me decide

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haiku #13(96)

broken some mirrors
will walk under a ladder
and find a black cat

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haiku #97

your naive pebble
dropped in my pond of calmness
rippled anxiousness

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haiku #98

o forgetful me
seems that i've lost count again
memory lapse, gah!

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haiku #99

irog 'yong dinggin
tinig ng aking puso
na laan sa'yo

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haiku #100

it's a perfect fit
my life's puzzle is complete
now that i've found you

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haiku #101

walang iwanan
ang sinabi mo sa 'kin
nung umalis ka

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haiku #102

don't hide in your words
coz your vagueness is quite clear
i know what you mean

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haiku #103

isabay mo na
sa pagiyak ng langit
ang iyong ulan

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thanks to kat and rika for helping me compile this. :j

opportune

sometime a week ago my boss sat me down to talk to me about the additional tasks that i'll be handling from now on and how i'm doing with work. she said that she was under the impression that i was just doing the work just for the sake of doing the work. she wanted me to commit to what i was doing and put my heart into it. i nodded and said okay.

bollocks.

if she only knew that i'm going to quit my job after i receive the yearly bonus and/or after i find new work. i've been meaning to this for quite a while now but something held me back. but i realized that i don't like what i'm doing and the direction that the company is steering me to. i need challenging work. it's not that my job isn't challenging. believe me it is. but what's challenging about it is the amount of work involved not the work itself. catch my drift? that's why i think i'm fed up with this job.

mag-aartista na lang ako.

i'd rather blog...

than work. obviously...:P

click here to view comments i made. :)

alive(?)

for lack of anything to write...

01. when texting i write the whole word. (22o <> totoo)
02. i got a couple of *great* ideas for a story, problem is most of these ideas are incomplete. (no ending or no beginning. :P)
03. i love writing haikus. (haiku count: 72(?))
04. i tend to like artists that only few people know or only few people like. (belle & sebastian, kings of convinience, etc.)
05. i love tekken! (though it saddens me that i'm just a below average player now.>_<)
06. ^_^6 smileys, T-T i o(O.o)o like! =^..^=
07. i love reading! (although i only own a few books.)
08. i know i'd grow old but will never tire of playing video games. (yep, tekken too.)
09. i'd like to be fluent in japanese. (sign language too. :D)
10. my oc: when i steady the fan, i align it's head with it's body. (a little bit to the left... a li'l bit more... perfect!)
11. i love to laugh. (and people who make me laugh.)
12. i like witty conversations. (and witty people.)
13. i know how to do a lot of things but can't excel in any particular one. (jack of all trades. master of none.)
14. i hate being late. (i value your time. :))
15. i eat food that has fallen off my plate. (on visibly *seemingly* clean surfaces only.)
16. i love women in jeans. (illegaly low please. :P)
17. i can't tolerate incompetence. (although i'm incompetent sometimes. :P)
18. i'm hurting. (i'm tired.)
19. i love numbers. (bs applied math. :P)
20. been doing this since 9:14am and it is only now, 4:36pm that i've finished it. (442 people to tag... :P)

do i need a reason?

for the longest time i hated fridays...

...i still do.

TGIF. :P

repost without permission...

ghosts

i just came home from the peyups christmas party.

it was interesting, to say the very least. i drank a lot of beer, which means i'm probably drunk right now. i'm only posting this because i've got some thoughts in my head, and i didn't want any of them to pass me by. my apologies for anything and everything i end up saying here.

i got to see lots of old faces, and we talked about lots of topics, like the 2004 up fighting maroons men's basketball team (marvin cruz is a superstar and we'll make the fucking final four if jay-r gets his fucking act together).

we also talked about how the member of the old fucking eraserheads are starving now, and how so many young people today don't recognize how fucking great they were. sure some people like their songs now, but they don't know the eraserheads like we knew the eraserheads. they changed our whole fucking lives man. they are the greatest rock and roll band the philippines has produced. ever. no argument.

i also came away with karl's urban dub ep, which i had been trying to borrow for the last month or so. it was funny, because most of the time, they were playing stephen speaks on the stereo. funny because we had an urban dub cd available, and we were listening to stephen fucking speaks.

oh, and i also so my ex girlfriend, man. seeing her really depresses the hell out of me. not because i still have feelings for her, but rather because i don't. i really don't.

i don't know if any of you guys can relate, but it's really hard looking at someone who used to mean the world to you (fuck it man, we were together for most of our college life, i thought i was going to marry this girl), and realize she means nothing. nothing.

most of the night, she was talking to my buddy frank, who came to the party with me. i wouldn't say this without all that beer, but i was joking that she was talking to frank because she was missing someone she'd rather be talking to, and she couldn't talk to that someone because her boyfriend was there.

i was just kidding, but she and frank were never, ever close back when we were in college. the conversation they had tonight was the longest they've ever had in their lives. what the fuck gives, right?

and i miss her too. not her, but the old her. the one who used to be my very best friend. she's long gone, because as i said, we tried to put it all back together, we tried a million times, but it's all lost.

that's why i hate seeing her. i'm glad she's happy now, with her new boyfriend and her new career and her new life and all, and i wish her the best. but i think it's fair for me to not want to be her friend, to not even see her at all. she's moved on, i've moved on too.

i could be over her, i could find someone else, heck, i could probably even be head over heels over that someone else, but the whole thing still depresses the hell out of me.

because she represents the ultimate failure in my life. i gave my heart and soul to that relationship, and it really just wouldn't work. lord knows i tried my darndest best man, and it just wouldn't work.

and that makes me sad.

wouldn't that make you pretty fucking sad too, to just be reminded of the whole thing?

my point exactly.

speaking of frank, i hate him. ditched me for my ex, that bastard. we're not friends anymore. threw away nine fucking years of our friendship.

hehehehe. of course i'm kidding. i'm only writing the because he just recently discovered this journal, by following links from quirky. richelle happens to be celebrating her birthday today. isn't that great? go greet her now. i wish i could do this in more sober circumstances, but what the fuck.

happy birthday richelle. you already have everything anyone could wish for in the world. here's hoping you make every dream come true.

@ 2003-12-07 02:29:00
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