if and only if

i would if i could
but i can't so i won't

not unless...

you know what i knew
and i knew what you know

maybe then...

you could be us
and i would be we

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so i had a picture of me and luz set as my wallpaper a few weeks ago. i simply liked the pic because it caught us in a "candid" moment. of course the moment my officemates saw my wallpaper it elicited a series of querries that eventually led to the question.

officemate : uuuyyy! sino 'yan?
me : a wala. friend ko. si luz.
officemate : friend? girlfriend mo yan e.
me : 'de. friend ko lang talga yan. friends lang kami. (ang showbiz!)
officemate : hinde e. girlfriend mo yan!

last week though i changed my wallpaper to a tiled picture of my sassy girl which i acquired from jem's friendster account. an agent noticed it and this is how our little exchange went.

agent : uuuyyy! sino 'yan? asawa mo?
me : ha?! ano?
agent : 'yang nasa computer.
me : a. wala. si sassy girl yan.
agent : akala ko asawa mo. maganda sya.

today i have a new wallpaper. and as would luck would have it, after i turned on my pc, my boss saw it.

bossing : uuyy. sino 'yan?
me : ha e. wala po. friends ko po.
bossing : friends? sinong type mo dyan? yung naka-yellow?
me : ha? wala po. friends ko lang po yan. (at this time i was already opening a spreadsheet.)
bossing : o, tinago na!

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now i'm a having second thoughts if i should go to our homecoming this weekend. as rico would put it,

"nakita ko na ang mga gusto kong makita."