lead on

who wouldn't be after she told me she found me interesting? and after that unexpected kiss at the copier. and shower sex.

though she told me that we should be (just?) friends. and at the onset she wasn’t comfortable being anyone’s anything.

still, it could’ve worked… in a world where everything good happens to me.

choose your own adventure: [you're the star of the story! choose from 42 possible endings.] THE PARALLEL PARADOX PARADIGM PREDICAMENT

“i want to experience genuine passion and pure joy in my life. i want it.”

if you decide to stay in safe mediocrity, turn to page 32
if you decide to leap to risk laden happiness, turn to page 85
if you decide to stab the wizard in his mustached face, turn to page 64

exercise

the white blank page is staring back. the blinking cursor mimicking an over reacting eye, already anticipating the blinding torrent of words that are about to come.

the taste of the first series of letters are foreign and wandering. but disappointingly too few to satisfy the potential of what might have been something of value.

pauwi na, sa may ayala

di nila maibaling ang kanilang mga tingin sa isa't-isa. ba't sa dinami-dami ng lugar dito pa nilang napiling magtalo sa mrt?

michael: you deplete me!

ellen: sana hindi ka na lang nag-hello!

dun natapos ang eksenang mala-pelikula. pinaghiwalay sila ng linya na nagsasala sa mga babae mula sa mga lalake.

parating na ang last trip.

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isa pang sample ng fifty five fiction na gawa ko ay ito at ito.

her: why haven't you asked me out on a date?
him: what?
her: why haven't you asked me out on a date?
him: seriously?
her: seriously.
him: because you're already dating someone...
her: so?
him: oh, i forgot that women are entitled to date around.
her: well?
him: well… so are you free friday night?

he tested the chilly water
cold as the freezing wind
wintry perfect
he’s no polar bear
no way near an arctic man
he stripped off all of his iced clothes
letting the invisible currents pierce his bareness
shivering he hesitantly jumped and dove
he welcomed the gelid water

all is well now

all is lost

fifty five fiction

"pare okay ka lang ba?"

napatingin ako sa kainuman sabay bilang ng bote sa harapan. apat.

"kaya pang magdalawang round."

"gago. tinatanong ko kung OKAY ka..."

"ha? oo naman."

"pucha, magyaya ka ba ng inuman ng walang dahilan?!"

"tama ka," ang tanging nasabi ko habang pinipigil umiyak.

"tangina, lasing ka na! isang round pa nga!"

fifty five fiction

one look was all it took.

and like spring my love for her blossomed. but passion that seemed hotter than summer withered and died with the leaves of fall. alone again with my winter heart.

thus ended my minute expedition, my mental reservation.

i then approached her, ready for the seasons to tear me apart.